I washed my cars today.

I washed my BMW today. I cleaned, vacuumed, washed the mats, deep cleaned the inside, and washed my car again. Yes, I literally took it to a manual car wash and then again through an automatic car wash.

I washed Jodi’s Tacoma today. I cleaned, vacuumed, washed the mats, deep cleaned the inside, and washed my car again. Yes, I literally took it to a manual car wash and then again through an automatic car wash.

I washed our Tahoe today. I cleaned, vacuumed, washed the mats, deep cleaned the inside, and washed my car again. Yes, I literally took it to a manual car wash and then again through an automatic car wash.

I checked and filled all the fluids on all my cars today.

I went to the bank today to deposit a check we did for a big job for The University of Utah Healthcare System.

I blew and cleaned up all the leaves in the yard today.

I mowed the lawn twice today. Yes, I literally mowed it horizontally and then again vertically.

I went to Walmart today. I needed to get cheese, yogurt, and protein drinks. Lots and lots of protein drinks.

I went to Smiths today. I needed to refill my Seroquel and my Prozac. Yes, I take Prozac for depression and for generalized anxiety. I also take Seroquel for bi-polar. I also take hours and hours of counseling and therapy for my life.

My life is good. My life is blessed. My life is full.

My back freaking hurts now. My life was way too full today.

I also have severe episodes of OCD. What I’ve learned about OCD is that the O is for Obsessive where I Obsess about something. The C is for Compulsive where I Compulsively act on that particular Obsession. The D is for Disorder cause if you’ve ever experienced this then you’d understand why.

I’ve also learned that my OCD is way more active and present in my life where I focus on external things, lists, “to-do’s” cause I just don’t want to feel. I used to OCD over food.

That was my list. That was my day. That was my out of control OCD today. I haven’t stopped cause I guess I just don’t want to feel. I’m not exactly sure what I’m avoiding. I’m not sure what my feelings are. I’d love to find out but I have way too many football games to watch now. Don’t worry, they’re on my “to do list”.

Feelings. Ya…whatever.

Have you ever had one or two or three or a lifetime full of these days? Days where you stay so busy that you don’t have time to feel?

I do.

Yes, I literally washed all of my cars today – twice.

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