I’m to the point where I am losing interest in this whole stupid process. I meet with my Dr. tomorrow along with a team of nutritionists and trainers. It’s been 11 days since my surgery. I haven’t eaten one damn thing. Nothing. I’ve had 563,889 protein drinks, 562 cups of chicken broth, and let’s see…a sugar free popsicle. Thats about it. I have zero energy from drinking 350 calories a day. Zero. I have nothing left in me. I am empty physically, mentally, and emotionally. I am broken down. Beaten. Done. I’m pretty sure you’d feel the same way if you literally hadn’t eaten for almost a month. My hell. Most people get hungry and angry after not eating for six hours. Times that by a month and you’ll see the depth of my anger.
Ya. I better be losing weight because with the pre-op diet and surgery and the post-op diet it’s been since September 19th since I’ve eaten food. Actually, I cheated once before my surgery and I’m really pretty happy about that choice. Those were the best nachos I ever ate and that was the best decision I made this last grueling month.
Regarding the choice to have gastric sleeve surgery? I am really angry and resentful today. I AM HUNGRY!! But, from what I’ve heard and read and everyone I’ve talked too? This is a normal feeling and “it gets better”. I’m sure it does.
I just want nachos.