Some things are hard for me to say.

I love you.

I was wrong.

I’m sorry.

I need help.

I can do this. I can say hard things. Here it goes.

“I’m grateful for those who love me. I love you”.

“I am wrong”.

”I’m sorry”.

“I need help”.

There. That wasn’t so hard.

I know one of the most difficult things in life is to learn to like/love ourselves for who we are. Some people struggle with this. Some people don’t. I am one of those that struggles. It’s a battle I continuously fight. The “being good enough” syndrome. It comes. It goes. I’m learning. I’m growing. I’m trying. There’s some days I like myself and some days I don’t.

Step 5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.

“I am wrong”.

Self shaming is is an exact nature of me being wrong. Me thinking I’m not good enough is an exact nature of my wrong. By nature, I am a natural man. By nature, I am an enemy to God. (Mosiah 3:19). I need to like/love myself more. I eat to stuff my feelings and emotions. That has become an exact nature of my wrong. I love food. I love to eat. I turn to food instead of people. I have an unhealthy relationship with food. I am wrong. I admit this to God, myself, and to all of you. At times, I simply just do not like myself and don’t feel “good enough”.

Step 6. Became entirely ready to have God remove our shortcomings.

“I am sorry”.

It’s a simple prayer. “God, I’m willing and ready for You to remove my shortcomings”.

God replies “Are you sure? If so, let’s move to Step 7”. “Ok, I guess” was my response.

Step 7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.

“I need help”.

Asking for help is humbling. We’d all rather help than be helped. Anyways, I asked. I was willing. I was humble. I feel like I finally got an answer. I had a servant of God remove 80% of my stomach. A Dr. literally removed one of my shortcomings. Food. Binge eating. Comfort eating. Over eating. I didn’t know it would be so literal. I didn’t know removing shortcomings included a gastric sleeve. A removal of one of my organs. I am miserable today. This is hard. It’s hard to lose some of our shortcomings. We all have them. Self worth issues. Pride. Envy. Greed. Judging others. Shame. (The list could go on forever). It is always darkest before the dawn and right now it is pitch black while I wait for the sunrise.

I guess the point is this.

If there are people in your life you need to say “I love you” to. Say it. Tell them you love them.

“I love you” – Brett.

If there are things in your life that “are wrong”. Admit you are wrong. Try to make them right.

“If there is anyone I’ve hurt or offended and where I am wrong. I ask for the chance to make it right” – Brett.

If there are people in your life you need to say “I’m sorry” to. Tell them you’re sorry. Ask them to forgive you.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry for any pain, hardships, burdens, problems, or anything else I’ve done that have hurt you in any way. I ask you to forgive me” – Brett.

If you “need help” ask for help. If you’re in a place where you’re willing and able to help others. Help them.

“I need help in my life right now. I am also willing and able to help you” – Brett.

Most importantly. Love yourself. If you don’t like/love yourself you are wrong. Tell yourself you’re sorry and hug yourself. Learn to like/love yourself. And remember that at some point in all of our lives you will feel, receive, and give love. You will also be wrong. You will be sorry. And, I promise you, if you are a human being, you will need help.

I am definitely a human being.

A human being that just said some things that are hard for me to say.

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2 Comments

  1. Thank you for posting this brother. I love reading your blog. You help identify so many things that I think several people end up having the same sort of feelings but can’t put words to. You definitely have the gift of being able to express yourself. Love you!

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